i miss you hubby! :(

time flies way too fast.
surprisingly, my husband and I have been part for almost 8 months..
for those who might not know this, i got married last 10th september 2012
it started since i flied back here last 10th october 2012..
Been strongly endure myself, gather the remaining strength, held my conscious level up till my max limit..waiting for this october 2013 to come.i eagerly want to see the face of my beloved..i seriously do!
yes, i missed my dearest husband damn too much..we have only been together for a solid month, then soon after i'd got to leave him unwillingly,halfhearted. with tears been running down almost everyday, i face my day vapidly.

if only we are together now, its gonna be our very first Ramadhan as a husband n wife..
it make me so sick that i can't even return home for the Eid. i need to study and prepare myself for the upcoming final exam. i'm telling you, this is such a punishment and i'm totally in grieve.
it so sad that i cant even be with my beloved one,and instead i will celebrate alone for this year Eid festival..it's breaking me hard!

hundreds of miles away from home, alone, as most of my friends bravely taking risk, took their leave, without give doubt or second thought about the upcoming exams,fly back home, well yeah, my jealousy beyond my control, yet i cant even dare to take the same risk to return, i was afraid that i'm not gonna have time to study, logically, i have a husband that i haven't meet for almost a year, with my duty as a wifey, surely i'm not gonna have enough time to focus for my exam.and wut gonna be the outcomes of my final year result?i bet not gonna be as excel as last year.

i'm not strong,i'm depressed,
almost everyday i'd got a call from my husband to motivate and encourage me to keep on moving, stay strong, and study harder. i can't think straight with me of being alone, yes, the loneliness, the emptiness totally drive me nuts. i hate being here alone, i wants somebody to keep me company.
well yeah, none is here right now, along with this country having such a hard time, additionally gave me mentally unsecured..

so now, i will just move on, study hard, focus more, and diligently walking to my success. abang, i misses you so much.please wait for me..we've both suffered, yet you still stay calm, and literally keeps me company eventhough you can't be here "physically" but i'm confident your heart and soul are both with me. am i right dear? :D

dear ALLAH, if this is the sacrifice that i had to endure in order to obtain success, then please ALLAH do grand me the success that you planned for me all way around. and keep my husband safe, give him fortune, bless and pour him barakah..ameen


p.s: dear beloved families, happy fasting in this holy month of Ramadhan, and happy Eidul Fitri to all..may happiness be ours and yours.to reader, if u r a muslim, i wishes you happy fasting and keep on doing good deeds during this holy month..may ALLAH grant and count every good deeds you are doing and forgive your bad deeds.HAPPY RAMADHAN peeps! :)

burung owh burung..

bby burung yang dah mati..sob3 :(

bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

assalamualaikum semua....

arini juz nak share my experienced je..

last day..means semalm..

i called my mum by using voip..bole tahan murah la jugak..LE50 = satu jam..rm30 mesia..

then tgah2 gayut borak pasal exam..borak pasal study..pasal family ..

tetibe, mate saye tertangkap sesuatu yang bergerak2 kat atas lantai..

mate yang agak rabun ni..dipejam-celik.pejam celik..

seakan tidak percaya..dgn apa yang ade depan mate..

rupenye ade seko anak burung kecik jatuh dari atas bumbung..

alahai...xde bulu pon lagi..

sure die sakit sgt2..

jatuh atas tiles..mestilah sakit..cant imagine dat..huhuhu

memule ignored je burung tu..

buat2 xnampk..ckp ngn mak lgi best..hikhik..

tapi..tyme tgh ckp ngn mak ..mate terpandang lg..

alahai..rase nk ngis je tgok bby burung tuh..

die terngange2 mintak air..

panas sgt agaknye..

pastu cepat je saye mintak diri ngn mummy..

"mumy,nanti kak da call balik..ade anak burung jatuh dari bumbung ni".

"ok Da, mumy pon nk tolong abg cut kt luar jap ni..nanti call mule ea",balas mumy memahami..

saye pon..memulekanlah my rescue renjer..hahaha

kalut tyme tuh..terjerit2 kat hana (my housemate) ..excited pon ade..geli pon ade..

sebijik mcm ayam yang dah proses, cumenye perut die buncit sikit la..umbilical hernia agaknye..hikhik..

ok2..back to the story..

then, saye pon masuk bilik..tgok cni tgok sane..

ape nk buat ekk..think mida..think..

wut a mother bird usually do??

hurm..they using their peak to give their baby water n food..

so,i must exactly do the same thing as mama bird la kan...

which mean, i have to put myself in their shoes..

suddenly, saye pon nmpk ah kotak jarum ..ade la benang kt dalam tuh..

so i took it wif me..the whole box..

tp jarum tuh i left on my table la..

cume amik penutup kotak n benang..

guess wut am i gonna do??

hahaha...nk ikat burung n cmpak balik kt bumbung kah??

dahla..xpayah pk sush2..

meh saye citer je senang..haha..

saye amek benang tuh..n simpulkan die..

pastu celup dalam air..n slowly sentuh kt mulut anak burung ..

n bile dah ade stimulus..surela ade respond..

so, anak burung tuh pon ngange la mulut die..

owh..hepi sgt perasaan tyme tuh..

rase cam..i'm giving fed to my own bby..hahaha

dahtuh....ingtkan cukup ah bg air je..

tapi die still duk ngange mulut ag.,..

so, i thought die lapar la kot..

then, g dapur tgok ape yang ade..n akhrnye nmpk la roti gardenia (versi mesir yang keras lagi mudah expired)..

amek 1 slice n koyakkn kecik2..

pastu amek susu dalam freeze..n remdamkan roti tuh..

pastu saye amek wayer keras..gumpal2kan..

jadikan sudu tok bby burung tuh..

then kasi die mkn..

byk..sampai kembong perut die..haha (leyh mati kekenyangn bby ni nt :P)

heepi2..

rase cam berbaloi..

n forget to tell u all..yang penutup bekas jarum tuh..

saye buat jadi tempat bby burung tuh nye sarang..

kutip ranting2..n oso bulu mama bird..so,jadilah satu sarang burung yang agak serupa..

ade potensi jadi mama burung ni..hahaha :D

after bg mkn..i left it outside..

again i said OUTSIDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tyme siang mmg la panas..tp malm..sagt sejuk..

i lupe..

lupe yang die bby burung je!!!!!

my silly mistakes killed him..

owh..maafkan saye duhai bby burung..

hurm..sedey kot...

mlm tuh..die bunyik2 lagi..maybe die bunyik sebb sejuk..but i didnt noticed..

mlm tuh..dat bby tgl sorang2 dalam sarang tuh..mesti sejuk die..

n mlm tuh..i'm pretty sure mak die xdtg..haih..dasar mak burung..

hurm..bile ingt2 balik..keciannye.. :(

saye pasan die mati pon, the next day b4 g pasar..

keras..kaku..kejong..baru ingt nk belikan die bijirin..huhuhu..

mungkin dah ajal.nk buat camne..tapi saye pon silap gak..

xpela..dz is a new lesson for me..

insyaALLAH xbuat dah next tyme,huhu.

ade next tyme ke??

maybe..sape tau kan..sure i bole jadi mama burung yang berjaya pasni..haha

p/s: burung tuh..lepas die dah mati..i campak je dari atas..hahahaah..

gile kojam ehh..tapi..maybe dah dimkn kucing atau anjing kt bawah sape tau..

act..die terjatuh dari dat box tyme i angkt..haha(alasan2..jgn percaye..)

ok ah..tyme to study..next tyme update ag..

tata..

moral: kene blajar jadi mama burung dulu..!!!